Well this week was an adventure. We ended up doing quite a few divisions. Elder Leake isn't feeling so well and his ability to work was very limited. We spent lots of time trying to balance a sick Elder and two areas. It ended up being ok and I think the problem will resolve itself.
I don't know what we did but the Lord is blessing us with tons of new investigators. Being Zone Leaders using chapas to get around, we are becoming incredibly busy. We are really also just trying to fit in time to study--at least a personal study. Whenever I don't get a personal study I get really cranky. Haha. I don't remember that being one of the attributes of Christ so I consider personal study a necessity. This week I had a very inspiring study on Honesty, Integrity, Virtue, and Sincerity. I have with me some lectures by Truman G. Madsen on the Prophet Joseph Smith which we listen to occasionally in the house. One interesting quote by the Prophet says, "Man cannot enter the Kingdom of God unless he is perfectly honest." I thought about that and what it meant. Not a complete honesty but a PERFECT honesty. So I went to the TG to get some ideas. From the synonyms I pulled those 4 words and with scriptures and logic I tried to define what is meant from perfect honesty. I especially enjoyed my study on Virtue.
I have always wondered 'what exactly is virtue?' A highly quoted scripture from D and C 121:45 which says "let virtue garnish thy thoughts unceasingly, then shall thy confidence wax strong in the presence of God." When you look at the footnote it refers to chastity and purity. I thought, 'ok sure. If you have clean thoughts I imagine you can have confidence' but that didn't fully make sense to me. So I concluded that something about virtue inherently brings confidence--a very strong confidence that can even be strong in God's presence. So I broke the word down--the root being derived from confide. So confidence, then, is the substance or attribute that comes from confiding or trusting and confessing all willingly. Confidence is a confessing or a trusting in something or someone. To have a strong self-confidence in the presence of God, we must obtain virtue. In other words, we must attain self-honesty and cultivate a fundamental desire for righteousness. This is more than just a desire to avoid evil. It is a proactive desire to do good. And when we are perfectly honest with ourselves, we can see what we truly desire and from that, using the atonement, we can change our desire from evil to good. Virtue is incredibly related to Integrity, Honesty, and Sincerity and that is a new focus of my mission. I want to be perfectly honest. I want to be open and sincere with everyone. I want to wear what I am on my outside rather than keep things to myself. This is what I think is meant in part when we say 'perfectly honest.' Clean hands and a pure heart. Your hands can be clean, but where does your heart lie?
So that was my awesome study for the week. We are working to help people really progress as we make ourselves more honest and helping them to be more honest with themselves.